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Meadow of Flowers song by Anneke

by Jess | Dec 22, 2018 | Uncategorized

This past month I received one of the greatest gifts from a dear friend of mine Anneke We stayed up one night and I told her everything from the past two years. I talked about my grief and how much I miss Trey. She listened with an open heart and embraced me as I let...

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    May 7th we celebrated Trey’s 27th birthday. Ever May 7th we celebrated Trey’s 27th birthday. Every year seems to hit a little different, but this one came at me hard. Trey left this physical realm when he was only 20 years old. Age continues to take a hold of my body and mind yet it is frozen in time for him. Memories flood my mind. But as if a flood was trying to fill a desert floor. Not enough. Never enough. These memories are scarce and that is what I am afraid of. The time without Trey is soon to replace the time I had with him. And I find that hard to grasp. My grip is tightly squeezing the last of these recollections but each year some are lost or lose their colour, their significance, their feelings attached. All I have are my words and my pictures. My mothers best friend died when they were in their 30s. Now 30 years later my mother still talks as if she was with us just last week and how cool she would be in her 60s. Time continues and yet love stays. And this is where I find peace. Love is not tangible or to be contained. It does not have to be connected to a memory or space in time. It is not just a feeling, but a state of being. And I want to stay in that. Trey visited me in the sky the other night and I couldn’t have felt him more if he was standing right next to me. Last night I wept. Hard. Love was all around even within the pain. Here I am. Aging. Growing. Experiencing. And are overwhelmed with the beauty of life. The beauty of death. Love hard my friends! It’s a beautiful thing. Happy Birthday T. You are missed and you are loved.
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